Thoughts : Maybe I Just Don't Need It For Now, Sorry

I don't know when it comes to love matter, it will be a failure to me.
I am a normal girl. I want to have what other girls have.
Easy to get jealous. Easy to get influenced.
But, when I almost get what I want, I feel like I don't want it.

It feels like I'm talking to myself. Its like :-
"Hey, you don't need those."
"Hey, that is not your priority."
"Hey, keep focus on what you doing now."
"Hey, listen to your parents. They know the best."
"Hey, Allah is protecting you. He has a better plan for you. He wants to give you the best."

Now, I believe what my heart said.
I'm going to follow that thoughts of mine.

I'm really really sorry,
I never intend to make you mad or sad.
Nobody's perfect.
Sorry again :(